Who are you really?

What breaks my heart is people in this day and age, people in my generation more specifically are losing who they are and what they stand for because of the influence of another human being. We are so wrapped around doing whatever it takes to keep people around, we don't realise that the more of someone else we take in; the less room we have for ourselves. 

I can't talk though, for years I kept people around who had unconsciously convinced me that I wouldn't be able to make through life without them. I spent years conforming to who they saw me as, who they wanted me to be and learning and memorising what they wanted me to say. I was young, I stood for nothing so I fell for everything. But now I'm slightly better, I choose to only have a select few that know truly what is running through my mind. I choose to only have a small number of friends because I found that in the long run, every has the ability to listen but some have the capability of understanding. I wouldn't be where I am in life if it wasn't for her. Eternal love for you Sam. 

In my years of being in the rugby union scene here in Canberra, my first coach Darren Bailey always said, we as a team are only as good as our weakest member. To strive for greatness we must build each other up. He taught me how to strive to be courageous and be hungry for greatness in every area of life I apply myself to. He is the first person who ever told me believe in me and what I have to offer. And that one person, pushed me to where I am today. To Darren Bailey, I thank you. You have made me a person that little 11 year old Gase would be proud of. I'll never be able to repay you, but I hope I make you proud. Our team went on to win the grand final that year for our division. Our friendships and those we interact with and give our time to is precious. You have a choice to be giving your time to someone who is making you a better person or to someone who is slowly destroying you, eliminating your hope and faith and crushing your soul all without you realising. I've prayed a lot recently that if I ever make anyone's life difficult, they have the courage to leave me. But I also pray that if anyone makes my life difficult, I have the courage to leave them. You're only on this planet for a short amount of time in the greater schemes of things, why are you trying to be anyone but yourself? When they look back on history, what do you want future generations to say about you? How do you want to be remember as someone who was great or just like everyone else? Stop, think and do what you need to do. All my love, G