Good enough
I wish someone taught me that nobody was perfect. That no matter how hard I tried to reach perfection, I was bound to fail. I wish I could've saved my grandmother from cancer. I wish that I could open myself up to this idea of love.
I wish that the parent's I met with on Thursday didn't lose their daughter at age 15. I wish I was good enough to make a difference.
I was asked to met with parent's of a 15 year old daughter who committed suicide a week after her birthday. The first 15 minutes of our get together was tears, cries for her to come back, asking why did it happen. The rest of our time, we spent talking about how their daughter was a light to many around her, how she never stepped back from standing up from what was right. I became inspired and even more motivated to help spread awareness and help in whatever way I could. A 15 year old girl took her life because she wasn't good enough. I can recall countless times, I've been in that same position. So close to taking my life because of my self worth. And so many others are in that position. I wish people in this world would stop feeling so defeated and taking their lives because they don't feel good enough.
I've teamed up with Beyondblue to support a campaign project spreading the message of being good enough. The project has launched the #GoodEnough campaign to increase support for anyone affected by mental illness. The aim is to get a positive discussion going about self worth. It's such an important thing to talk about! Instead of letting this topic sit in the background, let's start talking about it. We've spent enough time letting this sit in the corner, pushing it aside every time it comes up, let's put it to rest. And that starts today. Let's work together to see more lives saved than taken. You are good enough, no matter what you're going through. You deserve to be here, you deserve to live your life.
YOU CAN GET INVOLVED! Take a photo, share your story, use the hashtag.
I'm going to share my story. Or at least a part of it because if I share the lot, I'll cry and then others will cry, not pretty, it's been an emotional week. Here's the truth, I was abused growing up. Physically and mentally. I struggled to develop who I was because I was always looking to meet those expectations on my life. Even to this day, I still feel as though some of my characteristics are based upon expectations. I think that is what contributed to me being self conscious, depressed and anxious. I've lived my life faking confidence, faking who I am to an extent and self love all the time, when in all reality, I want to cry and stay in bed. But I'll get up every morning, fighting against my own thoughts, ready to make it to bed that night. Only to do it again the next day, till the day I become confident in who I am. But this blog, starting this, hearing people's stories, being able to meet up with some of my readers, this has made me realise, we all have an influence on those around us. Even if I am depressed and upset about life, I was taught never let people see you cry. Always remain strong. Never look weak. But that to an extent has taught me what strength is and can be. I am strong, I may be suffering with mental illness's and sometimes it may take a lot out of me. But I'm not going to let that get in the way of feeling okay with being myself. One day, and hopefully one day soon, I will feel good enough. But this is step one, admitting that I don't feel good enough for myself, anyone, even my cats deserve better to be honest.
I deserve to be here, and although I get depressed and upset, no matter how badly I want to give up, I want. I refuse to. I'll do it for myself and my siblings. And my cats..
I want you all to get involved. It's hard being honest and vulnerable about your story. But I want you to get in involved with this movement
So to spark some inspiration, I'm challenging everyone to get involved to speak out and tell their story ! Entering them in giveaway I am holding ! You will have a chance to win a Christmas present filled with lush products (including my favourite bath bombs and more !) and a personalised penny board! All you have to do, use the hashtags #GoodEnough and #faithfullyfearless, post a photo on any social media platform and tell your story, then tag 3 friends and get them to do the same ! I'll be picking a winner on the 14 of December ! I'll be challenging these loves, as well as everyone at eternity youth to join the movement !
I said this before but some of us need to understand that where we are now, this hole of depression, it gets better. You are good enough, no matter what you're going through. You deserve to be here, you deserve to live your life. You deserve to feel happy being you. Get on it, make a difference today ! #GoodEnough If you want to check out the campaign, here is the link: http://www.samuelgaskin.net/good-enough/ . This project will change lives. All my love.