Dedicated to you.
UPDATE: Sorry, I haven't posted anything in a while. Here's the truth, my little brother got kicked out of home, my parents are currently in a custody battle, my school work has fallen to an all time low, my siblings are fighting, my life is chaotic and I got hooked into a fashion show (photos below) where I looked like I belong in Grease: The musical. But I'm back, and this blog is dedicated to all of you because 2 weeks ago I found out that I've had over +6,000 views on each of my blogs so far, WHICH IS WOW. I cannot thank everyone enough.
I've also been talking to a lot of the readers personally and the main question I got a lot along with many others were: " How are you able to open yourself up so easily?" It's not easy, at all, but I do because I know people in the world, some I've only just meet through my blog who has told me that it's hard for them to connect to people which makes it even more difficult to connect and open themselves up. So this blog post is dedicated to them, and it's a letter to everyone. It's not as personal this time, but it's very real, and I hope you enjoy.
To everyone, My grandfather's father author once wrote "A fighter can be a winner, but that doesn’t make a winner a fighter." You are not weak, you are a fighter. I know situations come that keep you up till the dawn of the next day, and that there are on going problems hat you face everyday. But I ask you to remember this quote. You may win "fights" but did you fight with all you had in you? Did you put yourself on the line like a true fighter to win? Because if not, are you really a fighter? I'm not trying to be harsh or mean, I'm simply stating and asking you these questions to make you realise there is more depth to any situation than we truly believe. Depth that changes our mindsets, that keeps us from going out and hanging with friends. depth that changes our happiness into depression in a single second. And we hide that from the world, scared that if anyone could see our depression and scars we would be judged and classified as weak. The dark void in our mind tells us that no one will care, or it's not really that important, so why should it matter? We're told to speak up but that might just push you over the edge. And me telling you to 'stay strong,' and that 'it gets better' won't work, although the gesture is appreciated, sometimes it's just not what needs to be said. Personally, I’ve tried everything - friends, education, material stuff, but no matter how hard I try, it never seems to be enough,It sucks, and I know people will say that you just need to be positive, or the solution to all of your problems is self love. But it’s not as simple as that, not when you’ve got to the point where you just feel numb. I can put on an act and pretend that I’m tough but deep down I never quite feel brave enough. Sometimes I feel so small in this big big world. That I feel like all I have are my words to keep my sense of control. This blog, it's like my therapy. A place where I can release and pour out my soul. One day I’ll look back and it won’t hurt anymore, I’ll be able to look back at what happened and not feel so sore. Cause there’s no cure. No way to fix it, any of it, it’s just something you learn to live with, but it’ll get easier, of that I’m sure. And I believe that for all of you, sometimes words may fail in times of need. But please remember : You are not the demons in your mind, You are not the hurt and pain you feel on the inside, You’re stronger than that, you can fight. Understand that it’s all temporary and that these things take time. So chin up, breathe, allow yourself to feel everything there is to feel, You’re going to get through this, Give it some time and you’ll heal. You are a fighter, you are a winner. You deserve all the happiness of the world, and I pray that any darkness surrounding you falls right now. "And once the storm is over you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” —Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore Tomorrow, you won't be the same person you were yesterday. Lots of love, G
This week, try something new, & remember that you are a fighter.
I quickly want to say thank you to these beautiful human beings, for sticking by me and helping me get through everything thrown my way. I would not be as strong as everyone thinks I am without the support and love from those around me. "There are darknesses in life and there are lights, and you are one of the lights, the light of all lights.”— Bram Stroker, Dracula Always all my love xxx